My goodness how time has FLOWN by! And now that I’m back into the photography game, life has gotten so busy again. Six days ago our sweet baby turned two months old and I’m just now able to sit down and go through all the pictures from this past month and look back on how much my little boy has grown. Doing these updates is so much fun, but also so bittersweet. I love celebrating each milestone, but I wish I could just slow down time to soak it all in even more.
And now that I’m back working again, I’m trying to figure out a routine that works for us. Most nights I go to bed thinking “oh man… I totally forgot to do that” or “what did I even DO with my day?” And as frustrating as it is to see my productivity go down, I’ve definitely learned the beauty of giving myself grace in this chapter of life. It’s okay that that blog post didn’t get written. Or the laundry is still sitting in our bedroom waiting to be hung up. Or that I’ve run the same load of laundry in the washer four times because I keep forgetting to move it to the dryer. I have to give myself grace because I know I’ll never get back these moments with James. So I soak in the cuddles. Spend thirty minutes having a cooing conversation with him. And watch him sleep on the monitor because I already miss him 20 minutes after putting him down for his nap.
Motherhood has taught me so much about what it means to put my own wants to the side so I can care for this human being who absolutely needs me. It’s tiring. It’s not easy. And it’s frustrating at times. But y’all… I have absolutely loved every minute of it- every hard, gross, beautiful and miraculous part of it.
One of my favorite things James has started doing this month is cooing. It’s seriously the cutest thing ever.
Well… besides when he smiles and laughs. I think my heart breaks into itty bitty pieces every time that happens.
Now that I’m feeling better, we’ve been able to go on more adventures with James. This month Isaac and I went to Denton and my friend, Amy, and I went to Waco! I have a little too much fun bringing him to new places with me.
Now that it feels like fall, you betcha I’ve been dressing him in all the cute fall clothes. And of course taking pictures to document said outfits. #noshame
Speaking of fall, we’ve already visited the pumpkin patch once, and plan on going again tonight and to another in Oregon this coming weekend. Our poor child will have so many pictures with pumpkins he’ll probably question my sanity when he’s older. ;)
James has started discovering different parts of his body and it’s so fun to watch him figure out how to work everything. Lately he’s been obsessed with his hands (as in, staring at them for hours as he accidentally hits himself in the face while waving them all around), and has recently been figuring out his tongue. He’ll move it in and out his mouth, and licks everything!
We had our last appointment at the birthing center and I may or may not have cried on our way home. Our time there was so wonderful, and I miss the midwives so much! I even dreamt that I got pregnant again (eeek!!!), and I think it was my subconscious telling me it wasn’t ready to move on haha! Thankfully I still go up to the birthing center often to visit the chiropractor so technically I don’t ever have to say goodbye. ;) And I think we’ve found a great pediatrician, which gives me such peace of mind!
With the cooler weather, we’ve been able to get out with James more, which I love. I’ve really enjoyed going walking again (when it’s not raining, that is!) and officially got the “okay” from my midwives to workout again, so you know I’ve been back at the Bar Method as much as I can be!
This month (actually the day James turned 2 months old!) Isaac and I celebrated 8 years together. I still can’t believe it was that long ago that he asked me to be his girlfriend. On one hand I feel like I’ve been with him forever, and on the other I look back and don’t know where time has gone. It does blow my mind, though, when I think back to when we were 17 and going on our first date and now look at Isaac holding and loving on our son. I’ve watched my best friend grow up from an awkward teenager to become an amazing father. How incredible is that?!
James has become so much more alert these past few weeks and I absolutely love it. His eyes wander all over, he can track and follow someone when they walk around the room, he can hit toys that hang near him, and smiles when you smile at him. I don’t think his smile will ever get old!
I shot two weddings this month, and leaving James that first day was SO HARD. Thankfully one of my sweet friends watches him when Isaac and I have to be gone all day at a wedding and she sent me a picture about every 30 minutes. #youretherealmvpemily
Now here’s to month 3 and even more memories!